Its Never goodbye..

It has been a difficult week. On Sunday I got a phone call while at work that my mother in law had passed away. Just hours earlier I was planning the 2 hour trip to to go visit her in the hospital the next day with my sister in law, so when my Sister in law was on the other end of the line I just assumed it was to tell me what time to meet for our trip to the hospital. Instead it was to give me the news that on her way home on from the hospital that day she got a phone call from the nurse she just left that about a hour after they left she passed away. I found coverage at work and met my husband at My in laws house. It felt like a bad dream. We went down to the hospital to "say goodbye" to her. I clenched her hand and as I tried to tell her goodbye.. I heard her voice tell me, like she had a million times while dropping my kids off to baby sit or when we were leaving "Never say goodbye, goodbye it to final.. its always see you later!" out of the 11 years I knew her this was she always told me.

I stepped out if the room and sat down in a chair in the lobby near her room. A little old man came out of his room.. hospital gown on and pulling his IV pole.. stopped beside me.. and began to hug me. He told me exactly what I needed to be reminded of in that moment.. "it's not these Dr's who heal us.. it's our God who does the healing" She was free from all her pain , the cancer, any imperfection.. She was not healed her on earth but she was eternally healed.. she was with him.. He made her new and perfect.. This stranger began to pray for me.. hugging me and praying with me.. he then asked me "young lady.. do you know our lord? Are you a born again christian?" I am still in awe of the entire conversation.. not only is it exactly what I needed in that moment but also an inspiration. . I want that... I want to push all my fear aside.. be the comforting shoulder for someone, there when they need someone.. and use every opportunity to show his love and lead others to him.